After leaving the military in 1983 I moved back home to upstate NY, where I stayed for about 6 months. After being unable to find work I decided to move to Ft. Lauderdale; where a friend of mine who was with me in the army was living we were going to start a business.
Anyway he invited me to attended his church I told him that's ok I am a good person, I have not robbed any banks or killed anyone and besides I was catholic. Moreover, I said that if God wanted me He knew where to find me; I did not have to go to church. In the meantime, I was starting to get into the occult. I was starting to learn about ceremonial magic, crystals and was studying books by Elizabeth Clair prophet, The Egyptian Book of the Dead and others. It wasn't too long after I spoke to my friend, when he asked me to go to church that I was at the mall in the book store where I usually bought my books. After speaking to my friend the cashier, I went over to the occult section and of the store and started looking through the books.
While I was looking over the books on the shelf I noticed that there were two guys there that I never seen in the store before they looked like twin body builders. They did not say anything but left the store. I then selected a book and went to the cashier and paid for it. As I went out of the store into the mall, the two guys that were in the store were sitting outside the store on the benches. They started talking to me and asked what I had bought, I told them it was an occult book.
Then they asked me why I was buying books like that? And just as I was going to answer them a really strange feeling came over me, I never felt anything like it, I cannot explain it nevertheless, I told them well if you know of anything better, I would like to hear about it and immediately the feeling left me.
Well a shortly after that I was in my room, because I was renting a room from someone, and as I was reading one of my books I had a real sense of something being wrong, and I said to myself, you know something is wrong, something is not right, then I heard a voice say to me why you do not see if your friend will still take you to church. Moreover, without asking who was speaking, I said why don’t I see if my friend will still take me to church I got up and went to the payphone at the corner store, because our phone was disconnected.
I called my friend and asked him if I could go to church with him, he said I could, while at church the Pastor was speaking, then she stopped and said that God was telling her that there was someone in attendance that really needed to be saved and she said she would not continue until that person came forward. The more she spoke the guiltier I felt, I remember thinking that I wished whomever she was talking about would go forward, at which time my friend nudged me and says to me Mike she is talking about you, and having been raised catholic church I told him too be quiet since we were taught not to talk in church, and said no she is not talking to me.
He did this about three times, by this time I was under such conviction that I was ready to get under my seat and hide. So about the third time my friend nudged me I crossed my arms and told him no, she is not and turned my head away from him, as I did so his wife who was in the choir was looking at me and then I broke, I felt so guilty I could not take it anymore. I told my friend I would go forward if he went with me he said he would so we went forward and as we were walking I just started crying, I could not help myself I was crying like a baby. I remember kneeling with the alter worker and asking Jesus Christ into my heart when I finished the prayer, I felt a touch and it was as if I was being washed from the inside out! I have never felt such, acceptance, peace, and joy, as that moment and from that time; I have never been the same.
I went home and knew I could no longer read those other books and so I wanted to return some of them, since some of them were worth a lot of money, but God spoke to me and said NO! Then I said well I will throw them away and again God said NO! So I asked what do I do with them then (and as of yet I had not read the bible) but God said burn them therefore, I did. In addition, since that time the Lord has delivered me from so much, I can only praise Him for His grace, mercy, and faithfulness toward me I was guilty and deserved hell but He gave me Love and mercy instead. He can and will do the same for you! For He has said those who come to Him He will not cast out, for whosoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved. So call on Him today, because tomorrow may be to late.